From “Husband Material”  to Deep Thoughts

- A Personal Snapshot at A Memento at Amsterdam

One of my colleagues just said, “Jacky, you’re quite a husband material.” At first, I was totally out of place (everybody knows that’s not quite true). And then we both burst into laughter. I must stress this was no indication of any likeness from her, as she was an “occupied” non-Chinese and we’re both under the influence of some “dirty tobacco”.

Nonetheless, this somehow made me recalled the swamp of married and/or engaged boys and girls I met. Indeed, I’ve been giving marriage some serious thoughts these days. Or at least to a milder extent, to start a serious relationship. However, I always take relationship and marriage too seriously than I should be. I’d not easily commit into it if I’m not 100% certain that she (or maybe he) is “the one”.

I must say my 23 odd years of living experience have proven to me, that the process of finding the one is more complex than the construction of pearl-river delta water damn; and that the process is proven to be tremendously sophisticated and time consuming, which I could not use any of the language that I comprehend to explain it.

And I even appreciate my move into the investment banking has intensified the sophistication. So under constrained maximisation, I’d always love to claim I quite enjoy my life at the moment. An as the portfolio management rule suggests, “never put all the eggs in one basket”, which I’m certainly living up with that. However, “the uneaten grape is sour” also suggested that only a deep-inside loner will go to a crowded place and claim how popular he/she is.

Regardless, now the voyage has started! As the captain, I’ll continue to steer the ship through thick and thin. I’ll continue to be who I am, and recharge at any piers that come up at certain fatigue points. But I’ll bear in mind my unfinished journey, and continue with the voyage in order to navigate to my final destiny. Having said that, I always think, what if at this point of time I could reach “the one” land at the end? Will I be able to stop enjoying the excitement of this voyage and stick with “the one” land?

I recall only once in my life had I fallen in love with a girl at the first instance; only once in my life had I committed into a relationship; and only once in my life had I believed in faith and fate but ability and effort. Now only once in my life had I remained the patience to wait (only my family and 139 chaps will know how impatient I could be – with my sincere apology). Next only once in my life would I think had I already reached my goal (which could mean “the one” or none)? Then only I once in my life should I expect another “the one” happen to me once more in my life again? Deep thoughts.